benwugui

2005-10-04T13:09:00.000+08:00

well... its been one month plus since i last updated... no time la so no choice.. haha, jus briefly say thru my thoughts... saw my fren's blog and realise he is quite down... well, love life is also full of regrets but no matter wad is u must at least try mah right... so don gif up okie... u know who u are... haha..., anyway, been trying to do alot for the hols, meeting TB27 mates, training for NS, working till my life bleeds, and of coz must entertain my gf mah... lol... anyway any major updates i will still update u guys so don worry yah.. haha... well i guess thats all for now, too tired le and now i am using my bro's computer... for eveyone info, my lappy spacebar spoil liao so wont be coming online too much yah... haha, anyway Yew tee mac is operating 24 hrs, i am working on 4th Oct, 17th Oct, 26th Oct, 27th Oct and 31st Oct overnight... so do drop by if u guys gave the time to come and eat... can see me mah... lol... alright, all guys enjoy ur hols and for frens in exams good luck to all... "O" or "N" or even jus exams, all good luck...
everyone take care yah!!!

2005-08-27T22:27:00.000+08:00

well... back to blog le... had a high and low day today, particularly today as i wanna blog ma, hahaz. anyway feel good when i see customers enjoy themselves but at the end i screw up my shift when i make pple cry... sorry ar (u know who u are)... anyway back to service dat i was asking previously... after hearing PM Lee Hsieng Loong sppech, i kinda realise something... that it is agreeable that poor service comes from poor customers sometimes, and sometimes it also comes from server mentality... which bring me to think how to have good service... guess singaporeans only have themselves to blame for dropping down the service level... first of all i believe passion and attitude must be right, if not u can never think about having good service... secondly, i feel that bringing good customer service means making ur customers comfortable and subsequently u should enjoy joking and chit chatting wif them. By breaking the ice wif them, a better interaction could well be seen... thirdly, company culture should also change as well... thou higher profit is still the cornerstone of all company, the mindset should change. Instead of bringing higher profit from minimizing cost, why not increase profit margin by serving more customer and satisfying more of them. For example, for me working in Mac a very clear way of making profit is to cut costs, but by doing so the quality of product is affected as lesser people are available which results in over holding time food. Service is affected with long queue time and poor quality of service due to frustrated employees who are being abused for working at such a low rate. finally, clealiness will definintly be affected. Sure, co do says that service is impt, but saying wif no action... does it really helps?? from my recent visit to K box, OMG, service in s'pore really sucks... they should start to reflect... wad bout customers?? aren't they requesting too much... in my opinion, S'pore customers mostly feel getting free things mean good service, which is so damn wrong and which is simply the reason why customer service lines pple prefer serving foreigners... they appreciate what the service personnel do... i am positive and sure once customer starts to appreciate what customer service personnel do, standards will improve... thus at the end of the day, the culture of service by co and the expectation of service by customers will reach a brand new level... at the end of the day, it is only wishful thinking on my part, anyway i wanna post it cause i wanna hear COMMENTS... pls comment pple...

secondly, month of sept i am dying, 5 impt pple b'dae but i hope i will be able to get thru it... kkz, dats all folks and thanks everyone for reading my bloggie... chaoz!!!

2005-08-18T14:33:00.000+08:00

well, finally able to take up sometime and blog le... haha, well everything have been fine jus that i am very busy with all the things around me man... realise that sometimes u could be seen as a very sociable person but u guys know something, deep down inside u know very well that u are nothing but a loner... i do feel like that sometimes, jus that u guys might not know.
argh... too many sad things happenning in my life again. Especially on my f***ing dad...

Enough of all the sad shities, well yest went to essential brew and had dinner with my ex TB27 classmates, namely, hui peng, shiling, karen, jiaxing, hanqing and siuyun... had so much fun man, i kinda forget wad it feels like to have fun with frens le after everyone turn so so busy... so yest i did enjoy myself alot alot. and well well, happy 19th b'dae to hui peng and happy 20th b'dae to Karen. Though it seems everyone looks tired from the busy semester, we still are able to have so much fun and i really cherish the moment together. haha, food and ambience there is nice as well so guys interested can bring gf thr.. lol, its at holland village, essential brew... hee..

jus finish my project and realise i kinda miss alot of lesson, tink i gotta buck up before exams come le. feel so sad lei, i like work alot hor also get 300 flat, when i work relax i get 270.. wads the difference man, i rather relax lor... haiz, store is also undergoing renovation, all those shit making me feel so bad man... den our store turning 24 hrs soon, so damn fuk up, den haning MDS also, wad the shit.. managers also not enuff, tink we going to die le.. lol

alright guess thats all bah... gotta chaoz... take care guys!!!

2005-08-09T11:19:00.000+08:00

well, its been some time since i last blog. haha, anyway i need to get comments from frens who have went for the marina carnival, pls tell me if it is fun ornt. haha... and also, these few days busy wif again school work and stuffs like that. well, i am also busy saving for birthday babies coming up in the following months, aug and sept. sept more jia lat lah, got man lei, 4 impt ones. so how wor?? sure broke like hell de la... lol... anyway have been sleeping late these few days but no choice mah, wad to do, busy with playing game also mah. haha, lolz. oh, hope got candidates for the president election, then on the 26th(i tink) election day will be public holidays and double pay wor... hahaha... *pray hard*
k guys gotta chaoz, take care!!!

2005-08-02T15:16:00.000+08:00

sorry guys i have been busy adding to me jus come back from hongkong so i now den can come update... hongkong was fine, but i don tink u guys wanna hear all the details, hahaz... actually i am lazy also la... hahaz, anyway i have jus started my dreams of going around the world.. haha...
anyway learn something called service in this trip, visited places like the HK tourism board, The ocean theme park, the HK international Aiport, HK convention center etc. quoting from the Ocean Theme park chairman, he said "Customer is not always right. But service is about satisfying your customer needs and wants", i was like wow!!! haahz, realise also MAC service in S'pore sucks, they ought to learn from overseas as well... haha, lazy to write le... tataz. anything jus tag me bah... lol chaoz!!!

2005-07-21T18:13:00.000+08:00

haha!!! been 13 days since i last blog... sorry guys, busy wif exams and tests... well nothing much to update jus that i've been very forgetful these few das, dunno wads wrong wif me. firstly, i forget to take safe key home and gotta take cab go back take at around 1am when i am working opening the "same" day. den i forgot to bring my hsekey out when i go to work. next i forgot to bring handphone out for one of my exams, in the end, no pple are able to contact me. finally and the worst of all, i opened the stove to cook things and i forgot to off and went out!!! in the end, i called my mum when i remembered an hr later... wtf!!! cause till my mum gotta rush home to switch off. and she was kinda suffocating... i am so so guilty, luckily my mum is alright if not i will not be able to forgive myself... i really dunno wads wrong sia, i got nothing to worry abt and yet i am behaving this way... wad should i do??!! must reflect liao!!! haiz, "lao ren chi dai" bah... and now that exams is over, my focus is on the hk trip next tue... yay!!! haha, well thats all folks, take care!!!

2005-07-07T20:55:00.000+08:00

well... back to blog le... nothing much recently, jus that finding it very hard to save up for the hongkong trip... must haf at least $200 dollars... heehee... anyway these few days mood dunno why, can swing de lei... morning quarrel wif mum, at nite work play like siao... dunno why also, but i need to look into my attitude for myself... also need to work hard to get the desire grades that i wan le wor... most of my mac frenz having N levels so good luck to them wor... and i will be very busy also, so pple don scold me if i don update okie... gotta work and study la and of coz acc her la... haha... 19 more days to go le... haha... everyone take care!!!

2005-07-03T18:09:00.000+08:00

wa!!!! finally able to find time to blog le... haha, sorry folks for letting u guys wait for the highly anticipated blog... haha... well well, anyway jus sch stuffs all the way this week la... actually i forgot most of it liao... haha... well jus briefly bring u guys through... tue (28/6), helped becks with some of the decorating things and stuffs before i go and meet thomas to chit chat at some place before we take cab go home. Wed(29/6), we were having all discussion in class and it was more like a freaking "meet the boss" session wif my teacher as she keeps throwing out ideas like nobody's business lei... den at nite got family nite, it was alright for me as i only stay till 8 and the fun comes after that, sianz... worst still, i gotta do storetour, but it is okie la... den thur work and fri got lesson and we went to support jason's nacho's shop at the library, but it was moving so fast den peng jie and i decided to buy another day so that others who dunno him can buy... haha, congrats jason and hanqing for a good start to the business... *claps* alright to sat (2/7) and it was a day full of work, so sianz but manage to have fun wif all of them yah... lol... and eventually went to daniel/rebz hse watch U20 final b/w argentina and brazil... woohoo... it was fun, but now today i am so tired writing all these... somemore in store keep on bad things happen, morning ST wrong things, sell kaya when i am not suppose to, people getting sick and MC, sarimah hurt her hand... wa lau, not a good day man... hope it will be better tml... heez!!!! take care everyone...

2005-06-24T21:58:00.000+08:00

well... 22nd was my b'dae and it was great... anyway, she helped me celebrate my b'dae and i was very grateful. somemore sang me a b'dae song sia... lol...well, morning had class, i skipped, lol.. b'dae mah... lol... den went for lecture in the afternoon before i went to bonding wif my class... it was suppose to be bonding in the end, we had a rivarly with TB21... lol...they all so ungentlemen sia, i send in a team of all gurls, they send in 4 guys and 2 gurls and were so so rough... sorry gurls and i pitied them... argh!!! but in the end, we got second overall and they got last... hahaha!!!! everyone was like booing them on their games... lol... yah, some sort of bonding... some fault gotta be given to the lec bah, for being so useless... oops... den went to celebrate b'dae, had a surprised dinner with leng, alice, peiyi, shuna, rebecca, daniel, gary, yolly and benson... thank you so so much especially leng and rebz for organising a surprise. den after that go arcade, b4 finally settled at rebz hse wif leng and ben... the rest went home le, hahaz... coz me don wanna go home mah, so went thr play game wif daniel... in the end, i sleep the most.. lol... sorry yah...
den leng went home earlier coz got class, b4 i woke up and wait for ben wake up and left at ard 1230pm... reach home and slept till 5 woke up... had dinner den went to lot 1 watch initial D the movie... whooo.... damn nice manz... especially the battle b/w AE86, FC and EVO3... whahaha... thanks yolly for treat me watch and to yolly, pls ar... anything i can say i will say de... lol... den went home and sleep liao... den this morning woke up rush the thing den i skip class yet again... lol, well nxt week onwards no more liao... haha... den went to TCT take some stuffs before coming back to yew tee, den saw cynthia kena fucked by cust... she so poor thing sia...
well, thats all, everyone take care!!!

2005-06-22T09:14:00.000+08:00

some updates yah... on monday, management team treat me eat jacks place sia, had lobster soup and chicken and crayfish as my main dish... after that we went to gelare in causeway point to have waffle ice cream. after that, all of them including leng went to my house to play mahjong den in the end i lost over 42 dollars... haha, nvm la, as long everyone happy can liao, all lost to leng and he say no nd pay becoz my b'dae.. lol
well, yest went to marche with my poly frens for dinner and we really enjoyed ourselves... joking and happily chatting all the way. got shiling, hui peng, siew yun, karen, teng teng, jason, han qing, jia xing and me sia... we ordered so many food, den playing all the way. in the end eat till very very full sia... lol... den ltr went to far east mac to celebrate mine and jason's b'dae, he's on the 20th... too bad madeline cant join us, she's on the 18th, haiz so sad... nvm, den we slack for awhile before leaving... haha, if i know how to upload photos here, i will do so ok... haha
and happy birthday to me!!! hahaha... but i gotta stay in sch till 6 den can go celebrate, so sad,but i skip firz lesson today.. haha... take care everyone!!

2005-06-20T08:08:00.000+08:00

well, my weekend is marred by sickness sia... lol, not feeling particularly well and thus not able to do many things sia... saturday attached to CKN5, wad the hell it is sia.. low volume my foot sia... run like 1 bloddy toad sia, somemore not feeling well lei... but nvm, got over it liao lor... whahah, den went back store relax relax den went home le... night time went to rebz/daniel house watch soccer with leng, win abit of money but yest all lose liao... whaha... betting is littat de mah... oh, before that taught rebz how to play initial D, she drive so funny sia... haha, but no worries, need more practice... lol...
den sunday went to work wif high fever as din sleep on sat night, den was a bit moody, dunno why abit of things piss me off... well, i din realise i rant at leelyne, i thought i jus said "how i know sia. its your counter!" if i am too loud den sorry wor, din mean it ^_^.. haha... de went home after awhile, *thump*, fell flat liao, dats why woke up so early today... hahaz
heehee, b'dae coming soon, hahaz, looking forward to it, gonna enjoy the last few days of my 19 yrs old... haha, everyone take care

2005-06-16T17:13:00.000+08:00

wads wrong wif boss today sia... got a shock manz... i mean diana also la... i was jus trying to know why must always help "her" u see, i don get it, why boss so scared of her... den she fuck me and ana saying why we both tok like wad sia... i am like, HUH??!! den diana start to slam things here and there sia... haiz... so scary sia... den i say, tink i betta leave so ciaoz... i left liao lor... but tink i know why diana piss la, i gave a comment saying it is gonna be quite tight wif the promotion coming up den boss ask diana, crew tight meh, den diana says dunno la, don come and disturb me... den we kena fuk liao... haiz, tink my fault, jus gave a comment only mah... nvm bah, work is littat de and dats why i must go to attachment lo... wad for ask me when u have already decided lei, might as well jus tell me can liao lor... haha... nvm la... things will be betta...
*hope u are doing fine*
take care everyone... cya...

mood=happy/tired

2005-06-12T23:24:00.000+08:00

well, it is more to becoming a weekly update for me already... hahaz...so here's wad i did over the week...
Monday, was in school till 4pm den went to meet up wif rebecca for dinner, we ate sha guo fan at chinatown, phew damn nice manz... den went to catch the movie "downfall"... haha, in the end i gotta borrow money from her to return home... lol. and i got to had my explanation on monday by "her". will talk abt it lata.
Tuesday, well, i was busy wif school yet again and den went to yew tee to help jinlong celebrate his birthday. well, was in store sang to him, den ate chicken rice, satay and rojak... wah!!! wad a feast, only miao xin, diana, leng and alice and the store pple join us... lol, well, happy 20th birthday to you yah... lol... den at night get to find out something... lol...
Wednesday, was in class talking abt nxt week cocktail party and it was so much fun manz... learning to talk and walking posture, well, although i get to learn alot of things but i was kinda dissapointed wif the lecture when i was keeping dozing off as they were teaching us how to dine. but i was piss wif one of the lec example when she gave an example and joke abt pple who dunno and kinda criticize their behaviour which i feel is nonsense lor... they dunno anything mah, how can joke over these group of pple lei...
Thursday, started working opening, den was joking around here and there den was suaning cynthia wif diana... shiok sia... lol, den we had management meeting, some calibration done and the meeting ended at 8 plus... i reach home around 9 plus after finish all my things sia... so damn damn tired... den on hand got a few things to do liao...
Friday, went to school as usual den went to ikea after school to shop around, den ate their hotdogs. taste good sia... lol, den reach home at ard 11 plus den help lyne print notes, new printer dunno why keep jam, in the end sleep at 230am and gotta wake up at 530 am... lol...
Saturday and it is my chinese birthday, woke up at 530 den mum cook mian xian for me to eat, so happy and touched sia... heehee, den went to work, work was tiring and i tink gotta apologise to shuna for scolding her but i am jus trying to get my point across sia... sorry wor... den at night, down crew mah till very bad, help ana till 6 plus den do my paperwork till rebecca, daniel and leng punch out at 8 den all go my hse together with benson at 945pm to haf steamboat sia... my chinese birthday mahz... lol... and also gotta thank eileen and lyne for buying a small cake to help me celebrate in store, really appreciate sia... all of u guys, u guys are the best... lol den leng, daniel, rebz and ben ton at my hse play game while i slp as i was so damn tired and was hurting at my leg and back due to the injuries sustained while doing delivery sia... lol
Sunday, den today went to IMM for attachment, den it was hell, all hell broke loose sia... the PC damn useless manz, but wad to do other pple store, gotta tahan... den finally tahan the whole shift, thought can see F.I.R there as they holding qian chang hui, but only get to see them from afar and too late to hear they'll perform. sad sia... den was kinda piss wif gary and rebz as they sau they die die they don wanna work tml coz today IMM piss them off, come on lah... rebz listen lo... but gary... haiz, his decision la... stone stuck izzit brother.. why all these things in ur brain... no other ways of looking at difficulties mah??!! suan le la, i am tired today... den shop around at IMM see AE86, initial D car, whoo... damn nice sia...
Others... she reject me le lor, but i was mentally prepared and thus i wasnt too sad after all, in fact i was feeling much betta yah... and i realise act, gradually i was giving loose le... so it din hurt that bad compare to the firz time round yah... but no regrets, i did all i can and at least i know i manage to let u try to like me... but don like means don like, cant force de mah... thus good luck to both of us, we can find someone better de la... haha... phew, dats all lor... take care folks...

hello guys

2005-06-07T16:51:00.000+08:00

haha... well long time nvr update le... sorry lah, was down the previous week. but since monday everything change le... i will no longer be hurt for "her". guess that is wad she wants and the pursue has ended. Still i wish her all the best and want her to know not to blame herself... cant force u to like me mah... things are like that, at least i know u tried right... haha... so pls pls don blame urself and i am fine... no worries everyone... i have thought abt it and no more of this le bah... things cant be force, everything is fated to what it is to be... haha... and now i am fine le, free from suffering. and i will definitly need to change le for my attitude... lol... but these few weeks busy wif school work so gonna bzbzbzbzbzbz.... haha, go off liao... take care everyone... cya!!!

i'm back

2005-06-01T08:01:00.000+08:00

whew... long time nvr update liao... becoz nothing much to say much.. jus a quick summary. sch start and it is full of work, sianz lo but wad to do. life is littat. haha. last week watch AmityeVille horror wif rebz and it kinda suckz. whaha... den weekend started working but no mood to work den kena a opportunity email. sucks man, really bring my mood down... i realise how few frens i haf sia, no pple to go out, everyday jus me, me and me. haiz, but that is life mah. wad to do. nothing much to say le, jus feel very very lonely... whahah... maybe one day woodbridge awaits my entry... lol... take care everyone...

finally!!!

2005-05-23T16:18:00.000+08:00

first of all, glad to announce that attachment over lo.. whaha... been a very very eventful attachment, full of downs but very little ups... haha... anyway life is littat mah... wad to do correct?? gotta cheer up no matter wad... past 2 days have been nothing but great... whaha... on saturday (21/05), asked peiyi and shuna acc me go bugis buy things... bought a few stuffs.. 2 shirt and a sling bag.... and it costs me over $54 dollars sia... but nvm la, at least it is well spent... den went to mos burger had dinner after that went to swensen eat ice cream... glad to realise they had so much fun... naturally when people happy u also happy de mah... den talk alot abt the past... in the end i reach home ard 12... but was happy la... sums up my saturday... den on sunday (22/05) woke up at 5am... go to the big walk under boss instruction.. becoz must reach by 630 so we took a cab lor and it cost me a bomb man... still dunno whether can claim... in the end went to store help diana as she down crew... den later went arcade wif gary and beckz, play the link play shiok sia... den at night went for dinner outing wif my poly school mates... last outing sia... before school start and we go different class. went for steamboat den went to cineleisure slack at a cafe... tok alot, about attachment , friends work and jokes... haha... anyway got thomas to send me home... tks alot sia... dunno how to say thanks man... u are a great bro... he even let me drive myself home sia, short distance only la, but i enjoy it too la... tks alot... jus finish work, kinda tired... gonna go sleep liao... chaoz

life??

2005-05-20T22:52:00.000+08:00

is the world like that? is the world all about all these kinds of conspiracy, backstabbing, i die u also must die, i will never let u go? all all kinds of fakes, conspiracy?? no wonder they say don trust anyone except ur love ones... i don wanna believe this but as the years in my life goes on, this sentence is becoming more and more true... i hate to believe this but that is wad the real world is all about!!! why do i haf to learn abt this damn real freak world at this tender age?? i have not enjoy enough and here i am suffering like a person strange to this world. i always thought i know this world, but how wrong am i... it is all but fake, no one to trust, betrayal and all those negative things u can find. i really dunno... argh!!!!!!!!! maybe i should really become an wugui rite peiyi like u always say.... i am so damn useless all of a sudden and feel so lost... lost in my shell... i suddenly sense the coldness in this wide wide world...

the saga is over

2005-05-16T22:50:00.000+08:00

well.... star wars saga is back, although i am not a single interested in that show, it jus link to a close of another chapter of my life...and it was a painful one... anyway, those who know wad happen, this saga has ended... she is no longer at that place... she is being ousted by fellow collegues, people who knows pls pls keep quiet... it is a confidential matter and should be kept a secret... today the results are out, all of us feel bad about it especially me as i am working with her for 1.5 yrs. haiz, it feels so so bad and though that she is gone from the system now... most likely of coz, but she will not return... well, i am the sole survivor of Sam'a era and all of a sudden i find myself working with a brand new team... phew phew phew, i tink i most likely would be able to survive bah... these few weeks are gonna be very very busy with all the things coming up... and it also makes me feel very very sad... mood is down, very down and it really don feel good. report is making me nuts too, and i tink i am gonna fall real sick... same as previous, i haf absoultely no one to talk to, everyone is stress, don wanna "fan" people... am i too much?? i really dunno... i guess this chapter of my life makes me understand wad is meant by politics... real world politics... if u cant survive get prepare to get booted out... it is no joking matter but this is wad life is all about... no wonder real friends are hard to come by, really hard man... why do i haf to experience this?? why cant i be as naive as last time, be as innoncent as last time?? why is the world so so cruel... haiz, i am jus glad i still haf something to look forward to and to accomplished in my life, if not living in this cruel world is abosolutely a waste of my life and time... signing off... P.s: Hope i can always be inside my cosy de wugui shell....

damn damn damn

2005-05-13T22:48:00.000+08:00

i dunno why sia... mood have been extremely bad sia.. i am so so so piss wif wad my firz ass is doing sia... wad the fuk.... every shift go off early.... wad is this sia... tell her over something, she doesnt even act like a manager sia... ai yoh... now i know somethinG bt her but i dunno wad to do... should i say it out ornt... i don even know sia... wad the hell is wrong... todsy work i jus feel like being angry sia... yes, i have 6 crew but it is really running till we can die lei... izzit my shift not good managed?? or izzit my firz ass got so many applicant but she don wanna move her ass to do something sia... wad the hell is wrong wif her sia... or wad is wrong wif me??? damn it man... i need time to get back my old self... and also, ear start to pain again for no reason, stomachache, gastric pain, headache... it is all coming sia... wad is wrong wif me... argh!!!! gotta siam liao... chaoz...

all over le...

2005-05-11T14:20:00.000+08:00

well.... dunno whether it is broken for my fragile heart, but it will still be littat i guess... trash things out last night, although i dreamn for 24 hrs, but it is enough.. now i will jus concentrate on the work i have on hands, firz priority is definitly her, secondly would be my report... phew... i jus cant keep my ass moving, all bones too old to move liao, lucky i manage to clean up my room... haha... well, jus wanna let u guys know and her also i wont wait for 6 months to gif up and it doesn't matter becoz there are many 6 months ahead that i will continue waiting... lol... no matter how many 6 months past, i will still be who i am and stick to who i want... thats all folks... i am fine, no heart broken or whatsoever, gotta chaoz... take care everyone... waiting for school to start so that i can get bz again so that time flies...

done liao

2005-05-09T23:29:00.000+08:00

i have done it liao... dunno where the hell i get all my courage... its make or break for my fragile heart... *praying hard*

happy mother's day!!!

2005-05-08T21:39:00.000+08:00

every mother in the world is the best i guess becoz mine is the best!!! haha... don envy me ok, i also encounter alot wif my mum b4 i and her can be so close de... spare u guys all the details bah. everyone have their own stories wor... lol... well, had dinner wif my mum yest and it was a feast... manz, it was so so full sia... guess wad, i learn how to cook shark fins soup sia... pro bah.... haha... den i went to arcade... leng and alice quarrel again sia, same as ben and eileen this morning... wad is wrong guys... haha...
shiling been in a low these few weeks, cheer up ya. cant tag so i blog lor, i know u will see de la... haha... i am a good listener... lol... and as for myself, facing a big decision, although i decide liao but i dunno how to ask sia... i told 3 people and the closers all say go for it sia... but when it happens, my throat choke... how to say sia... damn it... ah meng ar, ben wugui, u are so so stupid and coward... cant blame la... no choice de mahz... i really dunno how to say lor..
can anyone pls gimme the courage to at least say something... haiz...
thats all folks, take care... chaoz...

lolz... 2nd blog

2005-05-05T00:49:00.000+08:00

phew, 2nd blog of the day... die liao, now is nearly 1am and damn, i cant sleep.. looks like too much late nights liao... or izzit?? or i am jus bothered over some things... should i or should not i?? i guess i also dunno... i dunno whether i am able to protect, i dunno whether i can handle the quarrels... i dunno so many things. at the end of the day i still dunno... sidetrack abit, cant things be settled nicely, why do people quarrel, why people have angry as an emotions?? cant they use their god damn brain and think before they even take any action?? fuk all la!!!! so stupid, every single one of them... so so stupid... u all tink getting angry solve probs?? it solve shit... cant u all jus sit nicely and talk... am i too harsh?? i dunno... maybe i am to stress also... i jus wanna protect you but i cant... how stupid and brainless am i... haiz...

reflection

2005-05-04T15:28:00.000+08:00

well... looks like my life is full of comforting people sia... all my life i have been consolling people here and there... jus wondering the consequences of when people quarrel... or wad things they did...whenever something happen, someone is bound to be hurt..for example, early this wee morning, liverpool beat chelsea 1-0 to qualify for the finals... liverpool and anti-chelsea fans are bound to cheer, while chelsea fans are bound to wept. Thats how it goes, winners and losers, people getting hurt while some rejoice... (i am not quoting anyone ok) jus like when 2 people quarrel, both party gets hurt and upset, but the person closest to both of them will get hurt the most as he/she don wish to see 2 oh his/her close frens quarrel mah... another example, when 2 people get into a relationship, the person that are not involved but somehow affiliated will get hurt... but at the end of the day, certain things are bound to hurt people... that is no choice de, becoz we are humans with feelings yah. everyone will experience good and bad experiences, when the bad ones occur, cry it out and spit it out, when good ones occur, enjoy the best of every moment of it... haha... too sianz liao, blog so many nonsense thing... see ya, chaoz...

haiz

2005-05-02T12:26:00.000+08:00

i'm sure soccer fanatic heard of the "theaters of dreams". Well, it refers to the home ground of Manchester United, Old trafford. It is call the "theatres of dreams" as it refers to the dream place people wanna go... Thinking about it, and the things happening around me, i have come link this theaters to acting. all kinds of people act in life, for wealth, money, revenge... they act for all sorts of reasons, to reach their motive, they could even act till they look so natural and innocent... the world is so so evil, but of all evil i still believe there is a small sense of kindness in it... I once believe that the kindness in this world is alot, alot, alot... Friends are my biggest way of appreciating kindness... But, so many things happen, especially being "backstabbed" till i can lie in a big pool of blood. That toad ( i prefer not to use vulgarity, to purify myself.. haha ), in front of me agree with wad i do, looks as if stand by side... and on 30/4, act out a wonderful show, in the end, it is nothing but a show being put up and even people at the "theatre of dreams" would also stand and appluase the so natural ability of its acting. 10/10 for the acting skills, but 0/10 for trust and understanding your friend. Such mockery, being so so good in 1 area, but so so lousy in the most important area.. My friend, i always used to say, but within a month, being betrayed twice by 2 different people, how am i going to keep believing and keep trusting... come back and tink silently in my own circle, i can only say, "hey u very stupid la!!! this is the world. the world is not so naive and so simple as you think!! wake up!!!". izzit really this way?? i don wanna believe it, but it is really very very hurtful to be hurt this way... these bloody people know me for at least 2 years and this is the "fantastic" treatment i get... haiz, i totally misjudged them... people, appluase to them for they have got the best acting awards and in the process hurt an innoncent person who knows nothing about acting. however, i guess i will not change my outlook of life, though i will need to be more careful, but friends i will still trust, hope i am not a puppet to be monopolize by people but friends that my fellow friends can trust. signing off sadly, chaoz guys... take care...

phew...

2005-04-30T12:23:00.000+08:00

well... it's been a long time since i last blog... few things happen, bowling competition jus over, our zone got 3rd place which means no prize la... suay ar, all play like shit and i even injure my hand... wad luck!! anyway, jus went for fun only bah... haha. apologies to shuna and pei yi as they wanted come down support but by the time they come over liao... haha... monday (25/4), had a grp outing with my groupmates... man, it was so much fun... we chat, ate and hang around... long time sia, miss those times we're together, as they say, good things don last forever, and in the end everything ended.. haiz... but promise to have another gathering ok... tks peng jie, gina, karen and shiling for the outing... haha... and shiling, u must jia you wor... chances don come by easily,so when it comes, grab hold of it ok...
sometimes i realise i siao liao, always helping people... as usual, hidden meaning in my words but not appropriate to say more, when the time is right den say bah... den yesterday went to hang around with benson, thomas, jia qi and pei yi... guess wad, thomas taught me how to drive... haha... its an automatic car la, den we were like going in circles trying to learn, and den saw a police car... damn, luckily i was able to keep my cool and "drive" us out of safety, u see i got no license, later kena caught die liao... quite freaked out. firz time driving and i really feel like learning now... sorry for giving u guys a bumpy ride, hahaz... well... thats all, gonna go work later liao... chaoz guys and take care...

yu guo tian qing le

2005-04-25T09:34:00.000+08:00

well... it's all over... those moody days and those very very heavy feelings... it's finally over... haha... been having lotsa bad things in life, results poor, work results poor, friends prob, relationship prob... but gotta look on the bright side ya (right peiyi)... haha anyway i am fine le... coz it will not bring me down, i will try and try and try and try... continue, becoz i will succeed, maybe not the right time bah... haha... well, nothing interesting in life that u guys might wanna know but i start to realise that many people can approach me easily for all sorts of probs, big or small, but when u haf prob, i dunno who to find... it's not no one, but thr does not seems to be anyone appropriate... haha... well, jus glad i could always help people bah... anyway i am fine lo... life still gotta go on... haha... everyone everyone work hard you know... chaoz...

Results out = Bad mood

2005-04-21T10:54:00.000+08:00

Wad the fuck... bad results... don ever come and ask me how i do... becoz it sucks like hell... i don understand why, thr's this particular subject, all my grpmates got a B after final project but i got a C+... did the 2nd report pull us down... i put in the most effort lei, but i got the worst... wad the fuck... I AM JUST PLAIN MOODY.... wad happen... wads happening to my results... so much for the class i wanna go... argh.... anyway i wanna congrats my frens who all did so well except me... haiz... take care bah everyone...

Bck to blog le... Sianzz...

2005-04-17T12:57:00.000+08:00

nothing much to blog about these few days... also these few days have been very busy, with work and stuffs like that... btw, now all our mac brothers "lonely" liao... haiz, why does it have to turn out these way lei... although we expected them to quarrel la, but not so fast break lor... btw, did i say abt that guy i am so piss off with during work, he wanna sit down wif me, i don feel like it... how?? after quarelling wif him, i feel abit guilty, but again i tell myself not to... i jus have a bad feeling towards him, not hatred, jus don wanna be frens wif him anymore... attachment is tiring man, i keep forcing myself to do things as i don wanna be idle, den everyday gotta fill in wad i did, thats damn sianz man... haiz...anyway, these few days except that guy issue, it had relatively been a good few days... nothing much happen, but at the same time, mood is quite good... although tiring at times, but lucky i din totally fall sick... thats why everyone must take care of health and not focus on school work and work till u guys fall sick... guess nothing much to say liao... take care everyone, chaoz....

wad computer idiot fear... haha

2005-04-13T00:28:00.000+08:00

omg omg omg... i am damn freaked out right now... dunno wad the hell is gonna happen to my computer liao... haix, keep jam when go online... wads is wrong wif this freakin laptop... oh man, so sick and tired of worrying over this everyday... damn it man... been thru alot these few days, she cried again, this time on work... but i could do nothing, so damn useless... anyway went to vent my frustration wif ben and leng, den go makan session... dat was on sunday... which brings me to talk about the word trust... today i keep asking myself, am i trusting people too easily, why do i always offer others my help, for wad?? gain respect?? wad do i get in return, basically nothing... but i don mind, i don wan anything in return, maybe yes... jus appreciate that i am a fren worth the trust, i trust everyone but can everyone gif me the trust... not everyone can... it seems i am always being used to achieve this devious people mptives, but i still allow them to do it and u know wad, i once forgive a person that betrayed me before... i dunno wad am i doing, i jus cant bring myself to hate anyone forever... it is always temporary, den it is back to frens... but do all pple deserve my trust?? even if i am willing to open my heart and treat them wif my purity, why cant they all do the same... maybe this is wad humans is all about, fake and using others to achieve higher things... taking advantage of pple trust, but ask urself, can ur conscience be true... these pple don tink like that, dey jus play wif ur trust... haix... dats why this world is so so unfair... at the end of the day, i will still face people with the pure and innoncent heart... anyone have any views on this?? haha... enuff of reflection, today attach to turf city, damn the ice cream machine, now my hand very pain... the draw side spoil, always stuck gotta use my bull strength... in the end, brusies everywhere on my right hand... now so painful... haiz... btw, to my classmates in attachment, hang in there ya... we are in the 2nd week, very fast we can be together again... JIA YOU!!! bu yao hui xin, and most importantly must take care of ur health... chaoz everyone... good night and sweet dreams...

A day of shocks...

2005-04-08T01:19:00.000+08:00

well well... today is a day quite full of shocking news... Firstly, can my friends imagine, i've got myself a pair of contact lenses... hahaha... so much for i wont get i wont get and i got it... haha, actually an early birthday present from my sister... tks alot wor, although i know she wont see la... haha... den wore to work, look so blur and funny... haha... secondly, went for the bowling selection and guess wad, i made history, i've scored a high score of 171... even myself i am shock man... din get this score b4, previously my highest was 142... wow... heng only bah, den kena selected... suay sia... haiz... things at work are different now, gotta work for attachment, den today learn initial P&L from boss... wow, it was one of a kind man, took us 2 hrs to complete... den my eyes so tired becoz of contact lenses, den got very bad headache... but went back store took a panadol den slack around wif ben and ah yi liao... she wants to ask me maths, but she look so stress ar... haha... well, we must always look for joy in whatever we do right... heehee... so cheer up... haha... and although in the end i din help, but i still welcome you to ask me for help ok... anyone also can...not only ah yi wor... but ben hor, ur prob very big sia... even me also dunno how to help... i wanted to la, but it seems that lin is such a tough gal to handle... sorry la bro, i really cracked my brain liao and don tink so much le lah... well, thats all folks... everyone must work hard ok... chaoz... good night and sweet dreams...

thinking questions...

2005-04-07T00:41:00.000+08:00

well... it really got me thinking, my mum used to tell me that 2 hand claps while 1 hand keep quiet... very very strange how i started using this sentence everytime people start to quarrel.. from between couple to between friends to between siblings, it all seems so right... why do people quarrel and always tink that they are right and the other party wrong?? haha, human nature bah... things are always like that de lo... wad to do, humans have so many feelings and weakness.. i am not referring to anyody btw, jus feel like blogging about this lor... haha...
maybe this should help bah, remember that everytime u quarrel, both parties have each other interest in your heart, be it b/w frens, couple or siblings, when pple quarrel, it is jus that they have differing opinions or different way of viewing a certain problem or thing...
anyway, don always have to thank me for consoling you la, it is my pleasure... lol... i dunno if u will see my blog la, but i will jus blog lor... everytime u feel sad can jus look for me for consoling session and its FOC, and it is available to everyone except that pls don scold me when i try to cheer anyone up... haha... thats all... chaoz... nite nite everyone...

Change skin lo

2005-04-06T04:39:00.000+08:00

Well... nOt exactly i did it, i only edit a bit here and thr... haha... anyway must thank pei yi for her help and seriously, i like this blog skin a lot... reflect alot abt myself la... not becoz i am a wugui ok...
btw, wanna inform all my frens, i am fine... so don worry, previous blog was becoz i am in a low... got thru my thinking liao... so should be ok bah... next i gotta set targets for myself to work with... tough but thats wad i will do... phew, gonna go sleep liao, jus finish football match on tv, no nearly 5 am... take care everyone...

Wad do i want??

2005-04-03T00:43:00.000+08:00

Mood - Low
Exams - Sucks
Problems - High
Appetite - Low
Tiredness - High
Confidence level - Low
Morale - Low

Exams finally over, but it sums up my mood... Don feel like thinking, don feel like living... No one can share my problems, i am wearing a mask everyday... It hurts alot... No one understand, don wanna talk to anyone... I have lost everything in life, my goals, my beloved, my discliplined, and most of all... my mind... Wish i was dead!!!

...

2005-03-29T09:42:00.000+08:00

First paper jus past and now i am trying to be in the mood to study the 2nd paper... i am seriously very confused... why everytime before exams things will happen to divert my attention... i don have the energy to study also... god pls gimme the power... no one can help me, looks like i am destined to do badly for the exams... no more do i have anyone to support me when i am down, no more could i find a person to confide my problems with, no more could i say"i love you" to somebody, no more could i do sweet things for the ones i love... i miss those moments, and i need someone now, but thr's no one... such a pity... my frens told me to finish exams first, but its easier said den done. everynight when i go to bed, the probs keep flashing in my mind, i cant have a good night sleep.... how?? how?? how?? somebody help me!!! haiz haiz haiz.. i seem to have lost my laughter... all is gone... i am not myself... why has it got to be like that... or am i wearing a mask in front of people?? haiz haiz haiz... to my frens who are attached, "cherish what u have, so that u do not regret in the future. Don always quarrel, tink back that u guys still love each other, why wanna hurt each other so much?? haiz" all take care bah!

Tired as usual!!!

2005-03-26T02:56:00.000+08:00

This week have been a busy week... busy wif work and play... but in the end never study... seems like got read thru la but in the end like i dunno anything at all... ai yoh dunno wad to do man... been trying to study, trying to work hard but like always nothing seems to be going right... computer down like shit, the whole comp lagging till like shyt... hey shiling u not the only one stress over computer lor, i am too lor... haiz... den now using my fren comp to blog, guess where i am now... in mac... haha... staying and trying to study overnight... later opening, start work directly... dunno why am i torturing myself like that, am i trying to study or i jus wanna work myself so i don tink of all the fu*king problems i faced... haiz... looks like the problems will always come back la... no matter wad i do also useless, these fu*king problems will always come back... recently also realise that i have been very vulgar, vulgarities seems cant leave my mouth... wad the hell am i doing to my life i dunno, maybe "wo que fa ai qing"... haha... when will my fate come??? girls seems so difficult to come lor... haha, people keep saying i am good here and there... (some may disagree... heehee!!!), but it seems like this kinda character nobody wants lor... haha... now time is nearly 305 am, tink must go back study liao... if not waste my sleep and time doing nothing at all... all people taking exams soon must work hard and don fall sick like me... haha!!! take care!!!

been a great week!!!

2005-03-19T00:09:00.000+08:00

As i have been scolded by shiling for using Microsoft word and she cant see anything, so i have decided to use notepad.
Happy?? LOL!!! joking la... anyway been a hectic week man... thur morning wake up slack in bed for the whole morning and
nearly quarrel with my mum... haiz, why does i always have to do the things like housework?? yah la she say she can do but i always
kena from her, i am tired too... i may not be as hardworking as my bro, but i am really dead tired at times u see, but i jus dunno
how to put my point across... haiz... anyway back to the happy things, afternoon went to arcade with gary and leng den spend quite a bit
till evening time when we meet shuna and pei yi for movie... we went to watch "hitch", man that was a damn funny show... highly recommended again...
haha... after that went to yew tee and had a talk with ben and eileen, looks like matter have been solve and i certainly hope so... anyway den we sent shuna home, btw gary
is so unlike himself, saying no self confidence everywhere... pls la, must be daring mah... haiz i know how to say people but i dunno abt myself...
I AM IN A DILEMNA, PLS HELP ME!!! don wish to blog abt it, no one can help me... haiz...after that acc peiyi, gary, leng, alice and diana for dinner
outside the yew tee coffee shop.. peiyi eat fishball noodles, haha, hope she wont get stomachache after the meal... lol... later at night, sent peiyi home
den me, gary and leng went home liao, took a cab but we share so not that bad...
next is fri which is today, early morning around 10 plus left home go arcade again, this time with suvit... played awhile then he, peter and hafidz pang seh me,
in the end i am thr alone till 1.15pm like that, suay suay b4 i leave den i see wei long.. haha, somemore i play a game alone and press 2 players,
den let pple play for free... haha... met shiling in school at around 2.15, suppose to reach at 2pm, paiseh la... i always late de, so sorry...
acc her do her lappy and also lend her flash to do backup for her comp, stayed at the comp rm till 4 plus still her things cant fixed, haha...den peng jie
borrow us her EC notes b4 we proceed to the classroom for briefing.. OMG, my LO is so so naggy and she like those mother type, dunno if it
is good or bad... anyway hope it is good bah...den went for the workshop, the lecturer was good but the students was damn bad, esp "her"!!! shiling know who i am referring to, keep giving those sian look, really wanna tell her if u don like go home la... den after the briefing, went to have dinner with shiling, peng jie, jia xing and han qing, ordered so much food, so full man... got satay, beehoon, hokkien mee.... den shiling and i was shock when peng jie finished up the hokkien mee!!! eyes popping up, haha... den all of us suan han qing, hey don worry yah.. we all joking nia, well it was also very shocking today peng jie very high spirits... haha, so strange but we all had fun... den we went han qing hse watch tv show, last episode la, don wanna miss so went his house... den around 10 plus went home liao... btw, shiling seems so angry today, well if i offended u sorry la, play play nia... haha... well on my way home got a bit of gastric pain, so now not feeling too well... tink i ate too much liao... haiz...
fresh news, while blogging, heard that gary phone in to 933 again, he damn heng sia, how i wish i can be like him sia... haha... anyway, he dedicate song to shuna lei... so sweet, but i got no one to dedicate to... haiz... he beats me there, he can be very straightforward, unlike me so po po ma ma!!! haha...
damn it is so late liao, 12 plus liao, better sleep soon if nt tml opening i will be late liao... nitez everyone and take care!!! chaoz!!!

Two Days blog!!!

2005-03-16T18:28:00.000+08:00

Oh well… finally got the time to blog liao….. been a busy 2 days… start from Monday first, it was our poly class last presentation as a class as next sem we splitting class, all of us was wearing formal so we decided to have dinner together… all went except gina, jia wei and jason… they anti social bah… btw, I cant imagine finish up my part in presentation in 1 min sia, also peng jie don blame urself la, we all are a team lei… no one blame anybody in a team, all of us did well ya… haha…. Anyway we went to suntec city’s Kenny rogers to eat chicken, pork ribs and fish meals… all of us were chatting happily and having our meal, and took lotsa photos… haha, later will go to our class webby and download.. heehee…. All of us was joking and “suaning” each other, esp shiling got a lot of missiles from me… haha, hey joking nia so don worry ok… den after that we went to the fountain of wealth and I dunno if I did make a wish… too many things to wish for le bah, haha, man are always greedy… lol, den I bought for myself a hanging handphone accessory, costs me $6, waaaa… broke liao… lol… after the fountain of wealth, we went to I dunno where but it is above the fountain of wealth and we chit chat till late at night… played games, gossip people and talk abt school.. well guys, this class is the best I have hang around so far, I swear I will never forget u guys man…hope that all of us can do well in the life in the future and that we can get out as often as possible ok…late at night me and jia xing went home by bus, lucky at shell station still got bus, becoz I actually got not enuff money to take cab… haha… heng sia… alrite that’s for Monday activity…
For yesterday which is Tuesday, woke up early and went to have breakfast with my family, such a coincidence, my sister, mum and I all wore red colour, funny sia… got “mo qi”. Den went to store to prepare for food as we are having store outing… kinda piss off sia, dunno who the organizer. Den everything like so disorganise, better not list out names, it’s not very good… tink some of u guys know who izzit bah… reach there at ard 2.30pm, den settle down, after that played some games here and there, especially whacko and the water bomb games… accidently kena Diana den I got sabo back by her, haha… den we all try to throw sandy down the sea, damn, she’s so tough to handle, injuries all over my body now even hand pain… lol. Well, after I have started the fire to the bbq, I went to the rock near the beach, btw we went to east coast park, sat that with firstly, Eileen and benson, den alice and siew boey den gary… phew, the wind blew so hard and for so long I have not had this peaceful feeling, no need to care about anything, jus listening to the sea sound… but good things do last long ya, I only sat there for an hr and I manage to see sunset… heehee… while there thought about a lot of things, family, relationship, school work, mac life, army next time… well, it was jus some simple thinking only… whaha…. Den back to reality life, went bathing with benson and gary, it was more like dancing sia.. haha…later went back to bbq pit to board the bus, damn dunno I suay or wad, before I board the bus knocked into a pail that the uncle put, din see la, so painful sia… haha… later at store, we went to put our things and receive our new uniform, around 10 went to lot 1 play game, evo clan in action… haha… play till late, den went under pei yi’s hse the playground stay overnight.. guess wad, gary actually called into 933, so heng sia him, den he freaked out when talking over the phone with the DJ… lol, but one thing was very suspicious, he whole night and shuna damn good sia.. haha, dunno wads he’s up to… lol…. Btw, recently quite a lot of couple having relationship prob, thr’s hafidz and miao xin, jin long and alice, ben and Eileen… haiz, seeing them quarrel really makes me think, guys pls cherish each other more la… u guys are in love lei, come on lo, it is not a game and pls pls anything can be solved de mah, not by quarrelling all the time la… haiz… I don mind u guys tell me ur prob, but love is about give and take bah I guess… cant always give or cant always take lor… u guys gotta work it out lor… well, so much for being naggy… exams coming, but like no mood to study like that lei… haiz…. All I need is energy to force myself to get down to business bah… really very worried I cant do well manz… guess this long blog is enuff le bah, anything pls tag on my tagboard ok, see ya guys… take care!!!

blink blink

2005-03-11T23:37:00.000+08:00

Am I suay or wad?? 2nd time I gotta write this thing.. whole thing jus close all of a sudden when I am about to finish… haiz… here goes again la…
Thur peng jie, shiling, gina and Karen came my hse do project and ate my mum’s cooking.. haha…den we do project till all very stone like that, esp peng jie… everyone jus hang in there yah… den after they went home I sleep at around 8pm till like 730 am today morning sia… it’s been so long since I slept like one pig… haha… well, maybe I am too tired le bah, go school liao still feel like sleeping den shiling say sleep a lot also not good for health, but I really very tired wad… haha… den today after lesson we went to the IT show fair in suntec city, phew..,. so many people and its so squeezy… den peng jie and I bought a 256mb flash disk, shilling was very reluctant, but actually I recommend lo… haha… anyway I had my doubts over the 5yrs warranty that the salesperson boast about as there are no warranty cert or wad and they still ask me to keep the receipt and frame it up for 5YRS!!!! Great, they must be joking… well, but liao mah, no choice also… haha… den after that went to fish and co in suntec to eat… guys so so sorry, guess becoz of my craving, u guys gotta spend so much… haha… sowie!!! Anyway u guys also enjoy the food right.. haha, also gotta apologise to gina, when shiling and I went to the bus stop den I realize that there got bus go back woodlands… argh, I forget la.. haha, anyway took bus with shiling den alight outside PS and transfer bus go store take safe key.. tiring day. Before I continue, my dear shiling(haha!!) pls drink more water and eat more medicine so u can get well soon… rest well ok… don fall so sick later no one bicker with me I will get bored one.. haha…
Well reach store den realize a few shocking things. My frens, got gf liao still can kinda like “gui hun”, kiss other and hold other girls hand. Den can tell me, “u cant push them away mahz”.. wa lau, wtf man.. gets me thinking, “WAD IS LOVE???” people who hear my pleas pls tell me wad izzit in my tagboard… I will be more than willing to listen, izzit correct on their part?? I really dunno… well, I cannot say anything also, I got no girlfriend and I still dunno whether I am in love ornt… haiz…. Am I ornt?? For me to know and for u guys to find out… whaha!!! But I dead serious that they are wrong lor… but but but… haiz, dunno la. Say liao also useless, wad for say lei… haiz… I also got my own prob, but really cant help it, I dunno if I should say.. guess not bah, if u all wanna know come ask me personally, if I wan I will say… Well, think gotta siam liao, tml opening. gotta sleep soon le la… if not cant wake up tml… everyone take care yah… nitez!!!

Back to blog

2005-03-07T01:24:00.000+08:00

Ai yah… gotta write for the 2nd time… stupid lappy, always give me stupid problem… Here goes…
Past 2 weeks have been hell for me man, project project and more project… ECD is finally completed… yay!!! Haha, when we tried to hand in on fri, everyone like don wanna leave it.. heehee, shilling was holding it like her baby like that becoz of the EC site mah… haha… anyway, credits goes to peng jie, shilling, Karen and not forgetting gina. Haha… anyway, the only regret I have was me not being able to lead well… haiz, so sad man…. Lucky I got such great project mates… heng~
Den after hand in project wanna go see doc as I am coughing like one hell of a dog, but it is close!!! Thanks to shilling curse la(JK)… no choice only can go home sleep… later ard 9pm, cough non stop again, this time Thomas called, guess he wanted ask me go chit chat in the end, he drove his father car and send me go see doc… man, wad a great “bro” I have… really appreciate it man, thanks a lot…. Den we sit outside lot 1 mac talk nonsense till biyun came down, her birthday mahz so I pass her present… Hey xiaozhu, 15 yrs old liao wor… grow up liao wor… haha… can see that she is getting along so well with her friends… felt happy for her… haha…
Sat and sun work was hell man… B/fast sales hit new heights and I am working on both days with my boss.. all of us and of course our crew also worked very hard, really dunno how to show hw much I appreciate their hardwork man… for the next few weeks, I also kena opening, die liao… work like hell all the way… but these 2 days although work really hard, we had our fun too… “work hard and play hard yah” haha…
Den finally today went arcade with gary, benson and finally that peiyi came… (Actually my fault play game till nvr reply her sms)… den we went makan dinner, den talk all kinds of nonsense till late then left.. all of us siao liao, all talk at different level of frequency…. Whaha, guess all too tired liao la… Rest well ar guys, don fall sick like me, fall sick liao cant recover one de wor.. haha… Take care wor…
Hm… did I miss out on anything??? Guess not bah, don wish to talk bout family stuffs, it’s jus sucks bah… and I wish myself to get well soon, felling damn bad man, project deadlines and exams time always sick… guess I am really weak bah… haha, only can rest more but that means less money… haiz… no choice, sch work is definitely more impt…
Guess that’s all, everyone pls tag more lei… tagboard like nothing like that.. whaha… weather is getting cooler so put on more clothing and don catch a cold… take care everyone especially peiyi, ur eyes ar… must take care… alrite, gotta knock out liao… see ya everyone…

Tiring and so sunny and hot!!!

2005-02-25T00:02:00.000+08:00

Wa kaoz!!! Wad kind of drought is this... The weather is killing me man... No wonder i fell sick for the past week. somemore haven recover... Well results get liao and it sucks big time... No choice, i made up my mind and told boss next month i working on sat and sun only as exams in the last week of march... Time flies sia... So so fast and i am single for more than 2 months liao... hahaha... din even realise... hahaha... anyway, been busy with work, and school project... The project really taking a huge chunk of my weak body.. haha... well, internet is alright but i don tink in the future i can use msn liao... all down like hell... haha, got also cant talk much mah, so why use??? heehee... anyway, yest went eat sushi and talk crap with my groupmates, haha.. it was fun and i enjoy it... wonder wads wrong with me, keep thinking about the time when i leave, like leaving the current class, leaving mac for army... haiz, i wonder how i will react when that day really arrive...
Problems are alot but jus have to look on the bright side of life... whaha... another thing, that "toad" in my hse, my dad, haiz, tink he kena sacked liao... nowadays never see him go to work, jus slack at home. really dunno how to face this stupid fella, drink his life away... haiz haiz haiz... but he seldoms gimme money so i guess it wont affect me much bah... haiz... Also, must save money to buy specs(or shld i buy contact lenses) and my work shoe, break till walk i also difficult... haha... too some time off come here blog, later log off gotta go do my ECD project liao, tml lesson 9am somemore, really scared i will be late... haiz...
TO ALL PEOPLE... WEATHER IS VERY VERY BAD, SO EVERYONE MUST DRINK MORE WATER OK? DON FALL SICK LIKE ME BECOZ IT DON FEEL GOOD... HAHA... EVERYONE MUST DO WELL TO KEEP URSELF IN TIP TOP CONDITION TO FACE ALL THE CHALLENGES OKIE... TAKE CARE EVERYONE!!!

Am i Really Back??

2005-02-18T16:01:00.000+08:00

Well... lappy seems alright but i am here in school updating my blog using school's computer. I am suppose to be studying but the mood really not there. Den very tired wor... But life still gotta go on right. Well, new year sucks like hell... But as long got money to spend can liao. Now wanna blog also no mood to do so... Nothing much to update, live is still the same... Well pple, jus hang in there ok... Take care!!!

E-commerce answer

2005-02-15T19:48:00.000+08:00

Well... to my frens, i am back but need to do homework so keep in contact...
To the teacher...
Topic: Comments on EC

It has been 11 weeks into the semester. EC is a very interesting subject. The practical work keeps me interested in the subject. It amazes me to have a website with the different design, and thus it helps me to put in my own creativity to enable my work to be better. However, lecture notes seems to be very brief and it is clearly shown how interesting is the lecture based on the number of students who attend the lecture. Also during lecture, students are free to use their laptop as the lecturer lesson is simply quite boring. Maybe he could use another way to teach. As for the tutorial, she is quite helpful and helps most of us to settle our project problem. These are my comments for the subject.

"Back from the dead"

2005-02-03T01:56:00.000+08:00

Woo Hoo

2005-01-28T16:45:00.000+08:00

Phew!!! I am finally back to the internet world... hahaz... The past 2 weeks have been hell man, lappy harddisk spoil, sob... All my files gone into the netherworld... Poor me... But who cares... No one does anyway... These 2 weeks really like hell man, work work work... Not only school work but also real work... quite piss off with my teacher, say wanna help me for attachment, in the end he himself overlook the deadline.. Those who knows who he is pls keep quiet... Den i was sick these few days and i am grateful for a few friends that care lo... Mainly Ben, eileen and shiling la... Haha... tks alot... although she care a little la, but i dunno if she feel like it... whahahaha... i jus continue deceive myself bah... lol... well... the past 1 month have been a really bad night, cant seem to sleep properly... keep waking up in the middle of the night many many times... maybe i am sick, maybe i am worried over work, maybe i think alot about her... many many reasons but i jus cant seem to find the correct one...
However i am very glad i am trying very hard to work hard... to find back my passion for work, the energy to study... haha... tks to??? i dunno whether it is her or wad... half of it is becoz of her la... tks alot la...
Past week also got the alice incident, haiz... was i wrong?? i kept asking myself but i can only tell pple that it is my job to do wad is necessary... looks like she'll be mad at me for very long... but maybe if alice is looking in the blog, if u are angry jus ignore me... don ignore pple in the store, they are innoncent de lor... if u choose to be like that, i am afraid ur frens will be gone de lor...
Lastly i still wanna stress i will wait.... hahahaha
Long long blog... since so long... chaoz!!!

Singapore finally din dissapoint!!! yeah!!!

2005-01-16T22:05:00.000+08:00

After their 1998 success.. Singapore finally did it again... Beating Indonesia 2-1 at home to lift the trophy 5-2 on aggregate. Today is such a boring day sia... Nothing much to do... Thought of doing other things but ended up doing nothing... maybe i really lack alot of self-disclipline.. Or am i jus putting effort in other things... haiz

Talk about efforts, energy... i don have it anymore in me liao... its been so long... i cant do my hmwk... i cant do my job well... i cant disclipline myself... i used to do it.. where has it all gone to?? down the drain le bah i guesss......

I want to have my energy back, my enthusiam to work, my energy to study hard!!! But who can help me??? i wanna have self disclipline... i want the energy.... i wanna work hard....
BUT can i make it ever??

Tell her all my worries... At least got someone talk to bah i guess... LOL... I still wont give up de wor... tink by telling her all these my chances are lower... i am now being branded a failure in my own eyes... hw will she tink den??
worst bah i guess... No matter wad u tink, i will wait... whahahaha... unless u tell me to FO... lol.. i will still wait...
*P.s: Don need u to accept me now, pls don treat my care and concern as an act of wanting u to be wif me... U need time and i understand... So i will wait no matter how long...

Thats all folks... Byez!!!

Phew!!!!

2005-01-12T16:26:00.000+08:00

finally done with my blog... hope things don hang again... very scared like jus now... now to update my blog... haha
well these few days in a upbeat mood, everything has been fine... but still as suay as ever...
and i did something illegal on my closing night becoz of her... jus only can hope no one say anything, if not the consequences will be very serious...

thinking about wad i did, i have never done such a thing before to anyone even my ex girlfriend when i was working, but this time i did it for her... i dunno why, but i jus feel the urge to do it... heng she is grateful!!! haha (if u are looking i'm joking)
anyway wanna tell her no need to be so thankful to me, i jus follow my heart and wad it told me to do... haha

although it may seems like nothing... but i still wanna do it for her...

today lesson sucks la, damn boring den gotta do work with that toad guy... can't tahan his nonsense thing man... but i think back of wad SL and HP says, i tink maybe i need to calm down on certain things le wor... so i jus keep telling myself to cool down... haha

For her:
actually i jus wanna know some answers... better than always dunno mah... maybe i asked alot of things yesterday la, but i jus don wanna live in a dunno world... haha... i know i make u confused yet again, but don let wad i say bother wad u are doing... no matter what, i'lll wait bah... jus hope she is here to see, as far sa i know she have not visited before... LOL

that's all folks... see ya guys everyone soon...

my blog in trouble???

2005-01-12T15:14:00.000+08:00

wad is wrong?? why cant i edit?? ai yoh!!! spend the whole afternoon in the end gotta do everything again??

sianzz!!!!!!!!

wad can i do???

2005-01-09T23:41:00.000+08:00

welll... she is in trouble... but i can't do anything... all i could do is jus be there for her when she need... but will she ever look for me to say her problems??? i certainly hope so...

anyway i wanna go for the field trip... i am desperate... i wanna go China!!!! i wanna work and work and work to earn all i can earn... but on the other side, i wanna spend more time for my personal things.... especially......... well, at least i have target to work towards to...

Target 1: to earn as much as possible so that i can go to China...
Target2: to do as much as possible for ..... so that i wont have any regrets and will give my best!!!

Damn... leng send me this saying...

It Breaks Your Heart To See The One You Love Is Happy With Someone Else. But It's More Painful To Know That The One You Love Is Unhappy With You...

well, my stand will always be my stand... gotta chao....
see ya everyone who's looking in my blog...

final words... "LET US ALL STOP FOR A MINUTE TO PRAY FOR PEOPLE WHO HAVE PASS AWAY FROM THE TSUNAMI!!! "

....

2005-01-09T01:01:00.000+08:00

One day back i was brimming with confidence that maybe i might succeed, after so many talkings from my frens but in the end, the ending is still wad i expected... Although expected but i am still very sad...
Today, the truth is out... everything is been known... i've know everything le... i guess nearly all bah... She still cant forget him, expected... 10 months lo... haha... i wish her all the best if she wanna be wad she wan to be.

Now blogging dunno for wad, when i saw her blog she cried, i am sad too, but i cant do anything... i hope that i can still be of help to her, i will continue show care and concern for her, sacrifice for her, until the day she told me to stop... Even if she says so i will still "mo mo" de care for her...
Btw, not all guys are bad lor... i am the good one!!! LOL... tink so highly of myself, so not paisey... haha... anyway, i will be thinking myself to sleep bah... all the way... think to sleep... tml got travel by CK and JEF... 2 fuckers, in the end still gotta wayang... sianz... i will try to sleep le bah... good nite guys...

Tiring week

2005-01-08T01:51:00.000+08:00

WAD A WEEK!!!! Finally it is over... some highlights of the week... most notably, the elevator pitch... well it freaked me out and got my teammates worried about it... Hahaha... sorry wor everyone!!! anyway, good job to everyone in my team except HER bah!!! Next, new year resolution,... wad i wan ar??? maybe the same as shiling bah... a few only la... LOL... Top priority is to get wad i wan and stop all my pain!!! so greedy u might say right... hahaha
2nd to get better grades and strive for the best, hence i was very happy when the elevator pitch was a success, lucky i din let my team down...
3rd to get myself a new hand phone... haha... so expensive...
Today add one more, i really really wanna go China for the experience trip, but it is so expensive... Really now seriously considering my options ar.... Haiz...
Lastly, i hope everyone resolution for the new year will come true!!! HIP HIP HOORAY!!!

Well... lastly, which had me been bothered for weeks, should i do it?? Thats the question, those who know will know la! Those who dunno don ask lo... Are all my sacrfices coming to nothing... I dunno, maybe bah, but i am also so stupid to continue my pursue!! LOL. BUT.... dunno la... hahahaha....
anyway tomorrow will be a better day and i hope it will... More or less i know the thing liao la... haha... but... still like that lor... anyway today also saw 2 of my frens stead, i today den know, got a shock of my life... haha...
One more thing, got stomachache for a week liao, cant seems to go away, but i try not to blow up, dunno why, maybe i dun wan people to care about me becoz i am a guy in lost of love now... LOL... hahha... all the best to couples bah
Now is 2 am, betta go sleep if not will have no energy for work tomorrow... Opening sia... Sianz...

Hi!!!

2004-12-24T16:37:00.000+08:00

Well... it's been a long long time since i last blog liao... tink only a few will be able to see wad i blog about bah... me and xiao zhu broke up got a week le and i got no intention to get back with her... such a heartless bastard i am right... more over been very moody over the past few days, dunno why, lonely mah?? maybe bah but i choose it and i wan it like that... jus wanna hope xiaozhu will be back herself and give up on such a heartless creature like me bah... this week skip school so many times, need to change le!!! last but not least wish everyone a merry christmas!!!

ARHG!Z!!!!!

2004-09-13T19:37:00.000+08:00

TODAY JUS DON FEEL GOOD.... REACH HOME VERY EARLY, wait for xiao zhu~ to reply den i slp din pick up her call..... stupid!!!! DEN I SLP LE WAKE UP HEADACHE ALL THE WAY TILL I CAN'T SLEEP BACK... TILL NW............. ARGH!!!!!!!!!! JUS FEEL VERY FRUSTRATING LAH!!!!!!!!!!! DUNNO WHY!!!!!!!!! ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HEAD VERY VERY PAIN!!!!!!!!!!

Long weekend

2004-09-12T22:02:00.000+08:00

Well it has been a long and busy weekend and today marks the end of the weekend... Anyway jus met xiao zhu~ for dinner, heehee really nice to meet her up... haha. den tonight the people gonna do boilout, good luck to them, heng i no need to go... In the afternoon, i tink i really was very harsh to scold my fren, my fault lo, not able to control my temper. They are bz wif project, as i could not join them i still scold them... They accuse me of not doing mah when internet down but actually they're joking but i din realise, guess i am too tired.. anyway, it's over and they're all forgiving hee hee. But today scolded vulgarities, xiao zhu~ not very happy... Sorri wor xiao zhu~ Finally, as i was counting how long i've got my xiao zhu~, it turn out my intuition is correct, today i had my xiao zhu~ for exactly 50 days le... heehee => very happy to haf her lo, haha... miss u lots xiao zhu~ signing off le goin goin gone!!!

10th sept 1003

2004-09-11T03:00:00.000+08:00

Oh well... another long long day... Jus that went to watch movie only lor... Jus came back from the movie, "the terminal" by tom hanks... Heartwarming and funny show.. learnt quite a bit of stuffs thr... haha... also, today finally see my xiao zhu~ le... ah!!! so happy!!! but becoz i working den no time for her... den she say she don wanna fren me le... at night she kinda moody, i already try my very best to make her happy le wor, in the end she tell me to go enjoy my show den say don wanna fren me.... :'( boo~~~ tink she joking only lah... hehehehehe. anyway glad to see her today, now gotta go back to my work le wor... must do project le... going going gone "POOF!"

Bad things always happen once after another!!!

2004-09-08T19:23:00.000+08:00

My title says it all isn't it... It's not once in a while for me, it always happen to me... Dunno why... In the end i ended up dragging people down wif me with how suay i am. Actually i wanna share happy things on my blog de, but today no choice, nothing to be happy bout only i get to see xiao zhu~ for like less than a minute. But seeing her is enuff lor =D. Start of a tiring day, customer in at mac again... Den down crew till like siao, only got like 3-4 crew on floor for breakfast when i need more... Run till like siao, in the end, again gotta rush to school, in formal uniform somemore, becoz of presentation. Talk about presentation makes my blood boil lor, really really pisses me off. My group for no reason and no say was being pushed to being the last to present. Den becoz of not enuff time, our grp gotta suffer to present next week, while others already relax from this project... NO SENSE OF JUSTICE AT ALL LOR!!! Other group overtime lor... I was damn piss off that i jus took my bag and walk off, tink all of them know i am angry lor... If that wasn't enuff, as i did not have enuff sleep, my head start to pain and i was feeling i had a slight fever... Becoz i thought if i din rush, xiao zhu might still wan me to send her home ma, scared she's alone... Den i ask her if she wanna be alone when i saw her at kiosk, she said yes then i left le lor. Maybe i might be a little bit angry, but i am fine lor. Don worry k xiao zhu~. I gotta respect u and give u time de mah... =D Den i took 925 home, came home open my letter box, haix, receive rejection letter for my scholarship application... I was sooooooooo disappointed, in the end i still have to rely on mu mum. I wanna save and i vow to make it. I don wan her to work so hard lor. My driving dreams i wanna put on hold le lor. It still can be realise de bah later in my life... Xiao zhu~ don be guilty or wad ok, remember i told u i am like this de mah, jus scared that u need companion i will be there, but if u don need jus tell me ok. haha. my appearance there sure make xiao zhu upset, my suay cause my whole team to present next week, not able to get scholarship will cause my mum to work harder... ARHG!!!!! Bad things always happen to me, i have tried to always look on the bright side, when can my life be better??? i really dunno............. Guess i will have to reflect facing my 4 walls and my laptop at home... LONELINESS crept into my life again... laugh or be sad? i dunno............

Nothing much

2004-09-06T20:39:00.000+08:00

Well these 2 days nothing much to blog about lor. well tml went home early but very sianz becoz sick... today also lor. den yest went to fren hse do project and ahem eat pizza hut lor... hehehehe
hahahaha. den go lot1 play game till sweat like hell. go there meet xiao zhu also lor.. hahaha. today morning drag myself go school also lor... den later try to reach home early lor, but in the end go xiao zhu hse do project and research... den i cook for xiao zhu~ wor, hehehe... hope it taste good ba... den now i doing project again... well that's all lor, bzbzbzbzbzbz..........

Mum's birthday

2004-09-04T23:08:00.000+08:00

today is mama's birthdaY. actually wanna cook one in the end did nothing. haix, such a failure... but i manage to finish my hmwk, feel so happy. although a bit sad xiao zhu not able to come but i must be understanding mah... she working lei... haha, my mum ask why she din come wor.. hehe. den later i go cut hair, barber sucks, now my hair like shit lor... i jus slack around till ard 4 then we have dinner le lor... we had fun in dinner, chat a bit and mama say xiao zhu~ will be very pretty when she grow up.. hahah =p den i brought out the cake to the surprise of my mother.. haha. den i gave her ang bao, although little but it is still heart that counts mah... den around 6 i brought the food over for xiao zhu~ to eat den in the end cause her to reach home late lor... all my fault... sorry wor, in the end she is late for 15 min. den she told me she got pinch, din sayang her, feel so bad, den i also can't do anything. haiz... hope the food nice ba... after send her home, actually wanna go play game de lor, den she say don wan lah, gimme curfew till 10. as no people go as well, i din go arcade and save my money... in the end, i went to civic centre deposit money and den bought bread and peanut butter as i intend to save money for other things. so wanna have bread for lunch as well. dunno whether can tahan.. haha
den reach home b4 10, hehehe, she happy i too... hahaha. come online too late, abit regret, only can talk t while to her... sob sob... but i tired and so is she, so now i wanna go sleep le lah... zzzzzzzzzzzzzzz...

3 September 2004

2004-09-04T09:22:00.000+08:00

blogging for yesterday. yesterday finally fall sick le wor. having very bad flu, in the end come for lesson in the day in the end din attend lesson. went back to sleep. den go xiao zhu~ hse, she cooked for me ar... wo.... so gan dong. den she pass me some flu medicine to eat den i promptly fall asleep liao... later we go meet jinlong and yolly to play badminton. that suvit ar pang seh again. we enjoy playing badminton wor... very fun, although it is is in the open court but it was still full of fun and laughter... play till whole body pain ar... hahahaha. after that we went to makan, but xiao zhu~ gotta rush home. in the end she din eat den i so guilty nvr send her home. after that me, and jinlong go play arcade den i also try to sms xiao zhu~ to try and acc her. play initial D keep on kena bully ny the level high high one. wah lao... can't take it wor... very piss off... den reach home very late lor... btw feel very very guilty nvr acc xiao zhu~... haha. den i reach home wish my mum happy birthday... haha. "POOF" gone!!

Whew...

2004-09-02T21:27:00.000+08:00

wow... another long day... today full of rush wor... hahahaha... morning rush to sch, afternoon rush for meeting, night rush to print notes... now den settle down to write my blog... anyway, sad wor, no time to meet xiao zhu~ makes me tink about her more... Oops =p anyway, meeting was long, and it was very productive... secrets annot be revealed lah... hahaha. but one major highlight was the incident involving andy and siti and we were debating on it. but i think i shoot siti spot on "if u wan others to respect u pls respect others first" den she was like trying to explain wad happen. in the end it all settle liao. hope so ba. den nw bz planning for tml activities. jus nw print notes saw my fren and the shop auntie dat long time nvr saw. had a small chat den jiu go back le. lucky can make it, don haf to rush tml and miss lesson le... hehehe =p jus saw xiao zhu blog, wad happen wor. why xiong bully you?? but this ben wugui dunno how to help. haiz... got 2 subject back le. Financial management got 39/50. International Economics And Finance got 66.5/100. Not too bad la considering the effort i put in. lastly jus wanna let the whole world know, xin fu de xiao zhu~ wo hao xiang ni wor =p =D "POOF" gone!!!

FuNNy Day

2004-09-01T22:53:00.000+08:00

Well, it all started this morning as i went for opening. Realising today is teacher's day and poly still got school sianz ar. Not the point, suddemly alot of customers run till my pants drop. Haha =D. den as i was late for class i decided to try my luck take cab in the end saw an ah lian fuming at no cab and even kicked the dustbin onto the floor. WOW!!! in the end i still took MRT and was 40 min late for class, heng teacher understand. Den after school, i go lot 1, intend to play game den wait till my turn liao thomas called in the end i go acc him as he bad mood. dunno wad's wrong b/w him and lisa. hope everything is alright. den i go meet xiao zhu~ yeah at 6.30p.m actually she come look for me at pool centre =p den she can go swim, so happy for her. but really worried as on our way there she was having gastric pain for running with a stomach full of water. heng i hold onto her don let her run. xiao zhu~ it is for ur own good. sorry if i hurt u just now. =D finally i reach home after send her to the poolside, stupid dad ask me pay out ornt ask me treat him DRINK BEER. i siao or wad. den i shoot him back, u din even pay my sch fees ask me for these. 4get it lor... come home do project again sianz lor. but today is a fine day lah. xiao zhu~ spirits also very high. happy for her. hehehe =D btw yesterday got pple jump train again, for god sake, izzit becoming a trend to die like that. , ai yoh really hope they have the BRAIN to think. anyway, i nw take train more careful le lor. scare scare... and den i let all my frens know my blog... guys keep in contact... signing off... wugui aka chiuming...

Xiao Zhu SaD SaD

2004-08-31T20:52:00.000+08:00

sad day for xiao zhu makes me feel sad as well. i did my best to be considerate and trying to encourage her all the way. hope it really works lor. this is for xiao xhu: EVEN IF NOBODY IN THIS WORLD WANTS U WU GUI WILL STILL WANT U DE. hehe =p den i really having bad gastric jus now, i din blame her, she long time nvr see her frens it is only right for her to meet them it is jus that i really no mood to eat. real sick and tired of outside food. now eating home food become so difficult. regret i din cherish the time when i have home food. in school another bz day at doing project, but my fren gave me shit work again. basically like cut and paste only lor. wa lau eh. no summary of any sort. in the end i still have to do it by myself. den it was agreed that the whole class present next week. hurrary!!! but still got other things to do wor. busy busy busy for me den when i say tired kena scolded by people - suvit. wad tired don come msn. tired can't come in mehx. kaoz... lastly, xiao zhu ar xiao zhu, don let xiao xiong hurt u so much can. wu gui jus now see u like that really really de sad lor... sob sob :'(. hope u will get over it, she still treat u as very good fren mahz... sorry if i remind u of sad things.... suddenly i feel like cooking myself everyday. but everytime reach home already half dead, how to cook... sianz and haiz.... jia you wor xiao zhu.... =D

another busy day

2004-08-30T21:33:00.000+08:00

whew... another hectic day have passed. well, it seems work has been done and the 4 hours we spend was wise. jus nw in school so scary, suddenly like got something knocking. my fren and i were freaked out. luckily nothing happen to the both of us wor. den xiao zhu call and "poof", i went to meet her le. can see her of course i am happy lah no matter how tired am i lo. haha... den quarrel wif leng becoz of his STUPID fren. like shit sia. made me scold the first vulgarity of the day. i am going to change le. even in work i will wanna scold less, for who else??? hehehehe... for me to know and for u all to find out whoever is reading my blog. reach home bathe le feel better but xiao zhu very sad. becoz she her xiao xiong got another zhu le and she wanna be original, that's the way. But her xiao xiong make her sad again, got another zhu le den say acting stead. in the end my very own xiao zhu so sad. i know she is trying to make me feel better, but i certainly hope my words made her feel better. wo qin ai de xiao zhu yao kai xin wor. =p
Ah..... One last thing, i tink i have overcome my own barrier. Jus now see all of them play bowling with bernard around, i don feel any sense of jealousy. well maybe a bit but i was not too bothered. hehehe... see le mah xiao zhu, u gave me back my self confidence... thank you wor... den we had a wonderful chit chat time at 7-eleven. Ai yoh, but i still enjoy it. Seeing my xiao zhu "oink oink" and laughter really gives me the energy. i hope i gave her energy to do things as well... xiao zhu don sad le okie... ben wu gui will be here =p sigining off le to continue bz bz bz bz bz.........

wad a tiring day

2004-08-30T13:53:00.000+08:00

wad a tiring day for me and my xiao zhu. i today quarrel wif my manager on shift, stupid sia. dunno how she become manager de lor. work so long le still run weekend like wanna die like that. draw so much money to go do wad, jus stand there like a pillar ar. wah lao eg. can't take it man. guess i am alright le ba wif everything.
my dear xiao zhu so poor thing, kena extend by manager den nvr inform her. y their management always like that one de. so upset yet i cannot do anything. maybe that's i always feel so useless ba. but she assured me that wif me around she will be happy... hehehe so glad to hear that. my first time wif blog, suddenly xin xue lai chao wanna create one. but tink will only let my xiao zhu see ba. wanna keep it low profile.
another thing is really feel my hse so cold and lonely. dunno why. maybe everyone is bz ba. no people at home. den like that lor. cold, lonliness fill the atmosphere in my hse. xiao zhu not ur fault ok. guess my family really getting apart le. everyone got their own commitments. when can we have the last time atmosphere back. last time don cherish, now den i regret that feeling of HOME is gone. so so sad... but xiao zhu will always brighten up my day. thank you xiao zhu =D